i dreamt that one day we suddenly stopped feeling sad. no more envy, hate, sorrow. i dreamt that people stopped arguing about racial differences, religion, politics. everybody became neutral. i dreamt that no war happened. nothing was fought for and nothing was kept. everything was for everyone. i dreamt that love was never ending. noContinueContinue reading “i dreamt that one day, the bad stopped existing.”
Category Archives: thoughts
movies i LOVE but definitely wouldn’t want to watch again
Hereditary (2017)Perhaps the scariest movie I’ve watched so far. Hereditary doesn’t rely on jump scares (which modern ‘horror’ films overused) and gets its creepiness by giving the viewer an uncomfortable feeling each sequence. I’ve watched it in the cinema and I can still remember how it made me crumble on my seat, something I neverContinueContinue reading “movies i LOVE but definitely wouldn’t want to watch again”
ruel
I messaged you yesterday, haven’t heard back yet. Did I do something wrong? Or is something I said? And it hurts me inside ’cause it’s killing my pride to see you reply to all of these other guys.
before we go – a movie
I am consciously dodging this film for years for reasons I don’t know. But due to the lockdown and me not being able to do anything for the time being, I’ve decided to give the film a shot. And it became an instant favorite. The film was Chris Evans’ directorial debut and I saw thatContinueContinue reading “before we go – a movie”
overbearing sadness all of a sudden
Its the middle of the night and a sudden wave of sadness hit me. Haven’t felt this for a long time. I hate feeling like this. I know my triggers though, but it doesn’t really stop what I’m feeling and experiencing. Knowing my triggers only gives me answers as to why these are happening toContinueContinue reading “overbearing sadness all of a sudden”
the story behind my first tattoo
He is Travis Bickle, the greatest anti-hero in film history. From the film Taxi Driver, directed by the legendary Martin Scorsese, written by Paul Schrader and starring the one and only, Robert de Niro. I know these things not because I feel the need to acknowledge the people behind the film, but because I wantContinueContinue reading “the story behind my first tattoo”
anger begets greater anger
From the movie Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri. How true is that sentence? It basically says that revenge isn’t good and nothing fruitful comes out of it. That should be every person’s mantra. Someone did you bad. You get angry. You want to retaliate. You get your retaliation. You’re left with the feeling of accomplishment.ContinueContinue reading “anger begets greater anger”
random tot #1
Who would want to bring a kid into this broken world? 30 years from now, I’m sure everything is twice as worse as it is.
fulfilled
thank God I learned to be less needy
The biggest problem I had before was that I was clingy. I crowd the special people in my life with my affection. And I always seem to feel the need to control them, in a way. I shamefully admit that. I was a control freak. I wanted to be loved too much. I dont knowContinueContinue reading “thank God I learned to be less needy”
highest in the room 