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slacking off

The restaurant I am working at has a small storage room located at the basement parking area. It was a good 2 minute walk from the basement entrance. Its where we store some of our products. We can’t fit everything inside our kitchen. When needed, I go down there myself. Sometimes, even when I dontContinueContinue reading “slacking off”

white walls

Shutting down my computer is the best feeling in the world. It can only mean dismissal time. I work the graveyard shift. It was only two minutes before the clock strikes 3:00 AM. I’m already packed up with my things and I have already tidied up my desk. There were only two of us inContinueContinue reading “white walls”

say nice things about me because I’m gone

I had to take a deep sigh as I patiently wait for my plane. I have lived here for 23 years. I have never been anywhere else. Here is my home, no matter where I go or live. Here will always be home. But I have to go. I am not leaving because of theContinueContinue reading “say nice things about me because I’m gone”

i wish they burned my body

It has been 4,365 days since they buried me. I ran out of things to imagine. I never saw anything but pitch black darkness no matter where I turn my head. They gave me a nice coffin, so that’s one good thing I got going for me. I can hardly hear my neighbour. The thickContinueContinue reading “i wish they burned my body”

thank God I learned to be less needy

The biggest problem I had before was that I was clingy. I crowd the special people in my life with my affection. And I always seem to feel the need to control them, in a way. I shamefully admit that. I was a control freak. I wanted to be loved too much. I dont knowContinueContinue reading “thank God I learned to be less needy”

the dream that changed his life.

dreams are not real. whatever happens in your dreams are figments of things you’ve done, things you want to do, and things you wish you did. “Good night”, Riz said to his girlfriend, Ari. They were both lying comfortably under the sheets on their queen size mattress on the floor of their flat. “Good night”,ContinueContinue reading “the dream that changed his life.”

it is what it is

I am at a very stagnant mood for the last couple of days. It has been since I started to completely accept some things in my life in which I cannot control anymore, things that would not change, things that I ran out of solutions to. I used to solve all my problems in myContinueContinue reading “it is what it is”

talking but nothing in particular

I felt this feeling before, the feeling of wanting to talk to someone, nothing in particular, just talk. Im not sure if I like it. I dont want to depend my stability to others. I am happy I have someone to talk to, and actually enjoy the small talks, the casual talks, but I alwaysContinueContinue reading “talking but nothing in particular”

dont look at me as the Jd from the past because I worked hard to detach myself from him

I know its impossible. I cant possibly inform every one about it. My past mistakes will continue to be the very definition of me to other people. To some, I am that asshole who broke their hearts, I am that terrible friend who left them hanging, I am that guy they never went along withContinueContinue reading “dont look at me as the Jd from the past because I worked hard to detach myself from him”